Mojo and the Mess

(Mojo POV)

She gets ready differently when she’s leaving the house.

Not fancy—just intentional. Clothes chosen carefully. Face set into something steady. Shoulders squared like she’s clocking in for a shift she didn’t apply for. I watch from the couch while she does a quick check in the mirror. Not to see how she looks. To see if she looks convincing.

This is the version of her that goes outside.

Outside gets the good energy.

Outside gets the polite smile.

Outside gets the “I’m okay, just tired” voice.

I know this because when she comes back, she exhales like she’s been holding her breath since the driveway.

That’s when I move closer.

She drops things more when she gets home. Keys. Bag. The version of herself that was holding it together. She talks less. Or she talks more but about nothing important. I let it happen. This is decompression.

Sometimes people tell her she looks good. This confuses her. She nods and says thank you like it didn’t cost her anything. It cost her something. I saw the invoice.

She doesn’t want to be a problem. She doesn’t want to be heavy. She doesn’t want to make anyone uncomfortable with the truth. So she packages herself neatly and hands that version out to the world.

I get the unwrapped one.

The one who sighs too loud.

The one who leans instead of stands.

The one who gets quiet without warning.

This is my favorite version. Not because she’s hurting—but because she’s real.

She apologizes when she gets home sometimes. “Sorry I’m wiped.” I don’t understand this. The house is not a performance venue. There are no expectations here.

I follow her room to room. I don’t need attention. I just need proximity. If she sits, I sit. If she lays down, I adjust. If she stares at nothing, I become something solid in the room.

Eventually, the good energy comes back. Not the public kind. The softer kind. The kind that doesn’t smile on command but laughs when it wants to. That energy lives here.

People think she’s strongest out there.

They’re wrong.

She’s strongest when she doesn’t have to prove anything.

And that’s the version I stay for.

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