Letters From the Mess (Dog Edition)

Hi. Iâm Mojo.
Iâm a French Bulldog.
Technically, Iâm just a pet.
But in this house, I am also:
â Head of Emotional Support
â Director of Bed Gravity
â Medical Alert Dog (self-appointed)
â CEO of Staring at Her Until She Drinks Water
And this is what a full day looks like when you live with a chronically ill human who smells like chemo, sadness, and peanut butter toast.
6:37 AM â Rise and Judge
Mom stirs. I am already watching her.
She hasnât moved in hours. Iâve been perched like a baked potato at the foot of the bed.
She groans. I snort in solidarity.
Weâre already tired and we havenât even peed yet.
She says, âToday might be a better day.â
I do not believe her.
7:12 AM â Pills & Panic
She takes her meds. The Important Ones. The ones that might work or might make her feel like roadkill. Itâs a gamble.
I am nearby. Watching. Judging.
This is when I begin monitoring.
My job is to smell weird shifts in her energy and alert the husband if she starts slurring or going sideways.
She calls it âalerting.â
I call it âOh no, sheâs doing the dying face again.â
8:30 AM â Bathroom Time (Team Effort)
She goes to the bathroom.
I follow. Obviously.
She says âgive me some privacy.â
I pretend not to hear her.
Sheâs not allowed to be unsupervised.
What if she passes out on the cold tile again?
What if she drops a cracker?
These are things I must consider.
9:44 AM â Couch Mode Activated
We move to the couch.
Sheâs bundled like a burrito made of pain and regret.
I assume the position: wedged into her ribs, staring at her soul.
A nurse calls. She ignores it.
A friend texts. She doesnât answer.
I judge her silently, then fart to remind her Iâm still present.
It smells like solidarity.
11:06 AM â Crisis, But Make It Quiet
She tries to eat.
That goes badly.
There is a vomiting episode.
I supervise.
I do not flinch.
I never flinch.
I am the rock in the ocean of nausea.
I am also licking the salt off her knee.
This is medical.
12:42 PM â Depression Nap #1
She cries. Then passes out.
I lay beside her like a weighted meatloaf.
She twitches in her sleep. I twitch with her.
Our sleep is synced.
Our trauma is shared.
It is sacred.
2:15 PM â Attempted Productivity (Laughable)
She opens her laptop.
Says she might âwrite something.â
Ends up watching 42 TikToks and crying over a frog who plays the piano.
I lick her hand and close the laptop with my body.
No work today.
Only survival.
3:57 PM â Afternoon Check-In
Dad comes home. He whispers, âHow is she?â
I stare at him.
We both know what that means.
She says, âIâm okay.â
We both know thatâs a lie.
6:08 PM â Refusal to Eat Dinner (Again)
She sniffs her food like sheâs in a cooking competition and someone just plated disappointment.
I offer to eat it.
She says no.
I bark once. Itâs a compromise.
Eventually, she eats toast.
I am allowed a crumb.
We are healing.
8:36 PM â Cuddle Time (Critical)
She says, âCome here.â
I do not hesitate.
She pulls me into her arms and sighs like Iâm the only thing in this whole world that still makes her feel safe.
Sheâs right.
I am.
10:42 PM â The Blanket Shuffle
She tries to get comfortable.
Her joints hurt. Her stomach hurts. Her skin hurts.
She cries into my fur.
I donât fix anything.
But I stay.
And thatâs what makes me more qualified than half her medical team.
12:19 AM â Final Rounds
She finally sleeps.
I check her breathing.
I reposition myself for maximum contact.
My whole body wrapped around her like a warm, squishy life vest.
And even though Iâm tired, I stay awake just a little longer.
Because she made it through another day.
And I was here for all of it.
â
Love,
Mojo đž
(Unlicensed, unpaid, and undefeated)






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