Letters From the Mess (Dog Edition)

Hi. Iām Mojo.
Iām a French Bulldog.
Technically, Iām just a pet.
But in this house, I am also:
ā Head of Emotional Support
ā Director of Bed Gravity
ā Medical Alert Dog (self-appointed)
ā CEO of Staring at Her Until She Drinks Water
And this is what a full day looks like when you live with a chronically ill human who smells like chemo, sadness, and peanut butter toast.
6:37 AM ā Rise and Judge
Mom stirs. I am already watching her.
She hasnāt moved in hours. Iāve been perched like a baked potato at the foot of the bed.
She groans. I snort in solidarity.
Weāre already tired and we havenāt even peed yet.
She says, āToday might be a better day.ā
I do not believe her.
7:12 AM ā Pills & Panic
She takes her meds. The Important Ones. The ones that might work or might make her feel like roadkill. Itās a gamble.
I am nearby. Watching. Judging.
This is when I begin monitoring.
My job is to smell weird shifts in her energy and alert the husband if she starts slurring or going sideways.
She calls it āalerting.ā
I call it āOh no, sheās doing the dying face again.ā
8:30 AM ā Bathroom Time (Team Effort)
She goes to the bathroom.
I follow. Obviously.
She says āgive me some privacy.ā
I pretend not to hear her.
Sheās not allowed to be unsupervised.
What if she passes out on the cold tile again?
What if she drops a cracker?
These are things I must consider.
9:44 AM ā Couch Mode Activated
We move to the couch.
Sheās bundled like a burrito made of pain and regret.
I assume the position: wedged into her ribs, staring at her soul.
A nurse calls. She ignores it.
A friend texts. She doesnāt answer.
I judge her silently, then fart to remind her Iām still present.
It smells like solidarity.
11:06 AM ā Crisis, But Make It Quiet
She tries to eat.
That goes badly.
There is a vomiting episode.
I supervise.
I do not flinch.
I never flinch.
I am the rock in the ocean of nausea.
I am also licking the salt off her knee.
This is medical.
12:42 PM ā Depression Nap #1
She cries. Then passes out.
I lay beside her like a weighted meatloaf.
She twitches in her sleep. I twitch with her.
Our sleep is synced.
Our trauma is shared.
It is sacred.
2:15 PM ā Attempted Productivity (Laughable)
She opens her laptop.
Says she might āwrite something.ā
Ends up watching 42 TikToks and crying over a frog who plays the piano.
I lick her hand and close the laptop with my body.
No work today.
Only survival.
3:57 PM ā Afternoon Check-In
Dad comes home. He whispers, āHow is she?ā
I stare at him.
We both know what that means.
She says, āIām okay.ā
We both know thatās a lie.
6:08 PM ā Refusal to Eat Dinner (Again)
She sniffs her food like sheās in a cooking competition and someone just plated disappointment.
I offer to eat it.
She says no.
I bark once. Itās a compromise.
Eventually, she eats toast.
I am allowed a crumb.
We are healing.
8:36 PM ā Cuddle Time (Critical)
She says, āCome here.ā
I do not hesitate.
She pulls me into her arms and sighs like Iām the only thing in this whole world that still makes her feel safe.
Sheās right.
I am.
10:42 PM ā The Blanket Shuffle
She tries to get comfortable.
Her joints hurt. Her stomach hurts. Her skin hurts.
She cries into my fur.
I donāt fix anything.
But I stay.
And thatās what makes me more qualified than half her medical team.
12:19 AM ā Final Rounds
She finally sleeps.
I check her breathing.
I reposition myself for maximum contact.
My whole body wrapped around her like a warm, squishy life vest.
And even though Iām tired, I stay awake just a little longer.
Because she made it through another day.
And I was here for all of it.
ā
Love,
Mojo š¾
(Unlicensed, unpaid, and undefeated)






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