Today wasn’t a fighting day.
It wasn’t a brave day.
It wasn’t a “look how strong I am” day.
Today was a “I can barely sit up without my whole body protesting” kind of day.
A “sleeping on and off because staying awake feels impossible” kind of day.
A “my energy is so gone it feels like someone unplugged me from the wall” kind of day.
No inspiration.
No productivity.
No silver lining.
Just survival.
My Body Decided the Rules Today
Some mornings I wake up and feel like maybe — maybe — I can push through whatever the day throws at me.
But then there are days like this one.
Days where it feels like I’ve been hit by a truck I never saw coming.
Days where my bones ache, my head feels heavy, and even sitting up feels like lifting a car.
Days where my body simply says: “Not today.”
And the hardest part is that there’s no warning.
No explanation.
No sense.
Just total shutdown.
It’s Not Laziness — It’s Exhaustion Down to the Cells
Some people think tired is tired.
But cancer tired is a different universe.
It’s not “I need a nap.”
It’s my body is screaming, my brain is foggy, my limbs feel like cement.
It’s falling asleep without meaning to.
Waking up still exhausted.
Trying to sit up and immediately feeling like gravity doubled on me.
It’s not weakness.
It’s not giving up.
It’s biology and brutality.
I Hate Days Like This
I hate feeling useless.
I hate feeling like I’m losing time.
I hate the guilt that sneaks in even when I know it’s not my fault.
I hate that my body has more say in my life than I do.
I hate that I can’t show up the way I want to.
I hate that “resting” doesn’t feel like rest — it feels like being trapped inside a body that won’t cooperate.
Today wasn’t a dramatic day.
It wasn’t a crisis.
It was just… hard.
Quietly, suffocatingly hard.
But I’m Still Here
And honestly?
On days like this, being here feels like enough.
Breathing feels like enough.
Staying home feels like enough.
Letting my body shut down instead of fighting it… feels like enough.
And if you’re reading this and you’ve had days like this too, I hope you know this:
You’re not weak.
You’re not failing.
You’re not “doing nothing.”
You’re surviving the kind of exhaustion most people will never understand.
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